day 30- Eating and Emotions

Meal 1- Cappuccino
Meal 2- Choc pb bar
Meal 3- Caramel crunch bar
Meal 4- Hot cocoa
Meal 5- Choc chip pancakes 2 tbs sugar free syrup
Meal 6- Two scrambled eggs
Meal 7- Choc chip cookie smidge 2 percent milk

Water and hot Tea galore

I am feeling a 'cold' a brewin'.  The past two nights I have felt sinus=ey.   I am thinking that in the past when I have started to feel sick, or when I am sick I have liked to medicate myself with food.  Who knew? This must be a prior habit because the past two nights I just want to eat..  and I have been upset because nothing seems to satiate.

I know that part of this journey is to figure out why I have turned to food to satisfy my soul instead of the Lord.    I am assuming it's because food can be instantly gratifying... tangibly satisfying.  I can see it, smell it, taste it.  The Lord offers peace, refuge, unconditional love, joy and so much more.  When you compare the lists it seems a no brainer that I would turn to the One who can offer all this, than turn to food for a temporary 'feeling'.  So.. I press on  toward the Prize... my heavenly Prize. 
EVERYTHING and EVERY part of life is to point us to becoming more like Christ.   Things we go through teach us patience... perseverance... how to love... how to forgive... how to serve.  Conquering my food addiction will bring glory to God  as I learn to love myself and others more freely.. as I persevere.. as I forgive myself... as I am more free to serve others because I am not so bound in my chains of addiction.