Day 1

I laughed I cried I cleaned.

What a day! 

I drank about 100 fluid ounces of water. Needless to say the porcelain god was my best friend today.

Meal 1- 730   Medifast Chocolate PB Crunch bar  =  yum

Meal 2- 10:00  Medifast Maple Oatmeal=  yuck  ( but added cinnamon and it was ok)

Meal 3- 12:30   Medifast Wild Rice Soup= yum

Meal 4- 2:30   Medifast Brownie= yum

Meal 5- Lean n Green-   5 ounces Salmon YUM!!!!  and Spinach salad with tomatoes and cucumbers.  It was so beautiful to see the colors of my food.  Pink/Corals sprinkled in green from the spices....  Rich deep Green Spinach and bright red tomatoes. I gotta say, I savored every bite..  I don't think I need a divorce from my love affair with food, I just need to tame my emotions and appreciate food instead of abusing it. 

Meal 6- Medifast Choco Mint soft serve 'ice cream'. = yum
 
The crying part- Here's where it gets tricky....  around 400 ish I became downright ornery and hungry... couldn't think straight... headache   Food has had such a hold of me... my entire life.   I stuck to my health plan today.. to the T!  and somewhere mid afternoon I found myself frustrated and craving things.. which lead to tears.   It's all good though!   I choose to walk forward!

Love affair with food-  You know in the beginning of a relationship when you treasure that person and you truly 'see' them.  You gaze into every corner of their face and you truly are 'present', in the moment, all senses engaged.  As time goes on its easy to take that person for granted and not truly appreciate them and enjoy being 'present'.  My love affair with food has to get back to the basics.  I need to truly 'see' food for what it is-  Sustenance from God that he did create to be pleasurable yet not abused. 

Best part of today-  Celebrating the New Year with our neighbors.
You know in the movie "Under the Tuscan Sun", when she starts becoming friends with random people that are in her life, and under normal circumstances they all might not have been good friends. She starts cooking for them and the movie shows them all genuinely caring for each other even though they are a rascally crew from different walks of life.  Spending time with our downstairs neighbors brings me such joy and reminds me of that.   My hubs baked a cake, I put on some coffee and we had such a pleasant evening, laughing and being hopeful for the new year.  ( side note-I did not have the cake!)   My neighbor speaks broken English and I speak broken Spanish but somehow we have formed a connection ... a genuine loving friendship.  Her daughter gave birth to a daughter this year and over cake/coffee and berries we all laughed and were present.. in the moment... truly 'seeing' each other.   (The cleaning part is me cleaning in preparation of my neighbors coming up)


Wonderful day ... Wonderful way to start 2013...