Day 21- Weigh in Week 3

Down= 1 pound

Week 1- 14.8
Week 2- 0
Week 3- 1

Something weird is going on.....  How lopsided?   I should definitely be happy with 1 pound... but can't help be disappointed a bit.   Anywho... not going to focus on that too long.

Time to do some dreaming---

This summer-  Can't wait to feel better in my own skin.  Can't wait to wear skirts again. Can't wait to sit in the sand and not feel anxious that I may not be able to get back up out of the beach chair.  Our vacation to cape cod is in July.  My goal is 50 pounds total weight loss by then.  34 pounds to go!   I got this!!!!  

23 weeks til then.   I need to lose an average of 1.5 pounds a week to make that happen.   Slow and steady wins the race I guess!     I was clearly hoping for more... being that I lost 14.8 the first week!  However, the past two weeks I have been VERY consistent and my results are what they are... so I keep moving forward!!

Cute clothing-  I can't wait to feel cute again.   Currently I am just trying to cover up my fat belly.   Nothing necessarily cute about that.   I don't hate my body.  I really don't.   I used to when I was younger. Even though I weigh over 300 pounds I don't hate my body.   It's just that over the past 5 years or so almost all of the weight that I have gained has gone straight to my belly area.  So I look pregnant when clearly I'm not.   People have asked me if I'm pregnant.   When I wear sunglasses I see people looking at my stomach area. As if I can't see them staring when my eyes are covered.   Apparently people who have the hormonal disorder that I do.. PCOS... have the tendency to have excess belly fat.  It's kinda annoying but I'm coming to terms with it.   I have taken measurements and so far I have lost inches on my hips and thighs but not my waist!   again.. it is what it is..  but I can't wait to wear cute clothing again!!!!  Cute clothing without the goal of hiding belly fat.

and so on the weeks I only lose 1 pound I will keep dreaming.