"real food" and cravings galore!

Day 62-

Meal 1- MF Mocha Shake
Meal 2- MF Caramel Crunch bar
Meal 3- MF Choc chip pancake, 1 tbs sugar free syrup, 2 eggs, 1/8th cup cheese, smidge milk
Meal 4- MF Choc chip cookie, 1 tb cool whip
Meal 5- MF banana pudding

Raspberry hot tea and more water!

The past 3 days have been rough.  I wake up craving 'real' food.  I find myself  'tired' of the same ol same ol medifast stuff.  I have eaten pizza.   The scale says I have gained a few pounds back.  Virginia is here and she is being such a 'B'. I am discouraged to say the least.  I keep putting on a brave face but I am really struggling.  I have a Health Coach who is a dear friend and I know I should be reaching out to her but my pride is getting in the way.  I will reach out to her tonight....

I keep worrying about what everyone is thinking...   annoying!      I annoy myself.  Ha!

Tomorrow is 'official' weigh in day and I am pretty sure the scale is going to say I gained a few.  It is what it is and I promise to be honest and write down exactly what it says even if it is a plus.  

Here is the reality-

I want to wear cool clothes more than I want 'real food'. 
I want to fit in an airplane seat more than I want 'real food'.
I want to fit in a booth at restaurants more than I want 'real food'.
I want to be healthy and have normal blood pressure more than I want 'real food'.
I want to be able to get pregnant more than I want 'real food'.
I want to be 'pain free' more than I want 'real food'.
I want to sit in any seat I want without fear of it breaking more than I want 'real food'.

I MUST push on.... no matter what the scale says tomorrow.

#FORWARD!!!!!!!