This is for you Kenny!!!!

Monday the 11th weigh in-   down 1.8 pounds!  woot woot!   Total to date- 27ish pounds

My goal is 1.5 pounds a week.   Anything above that is fabuloso!  If I lose 1.5 pounds a week from now until vacation in July I will be down 50 pounds. 

Meal 1- Chocolate shake
Meal 2- Choc pudding
Meal 3- chicken noodle soup
Meal 4- vanilla shake
Meal 5- Some lean- 1/2 cup cottage cheese
Meal 6- MF choc chip pancakes 2 tbs sf syrup  some lean- 2 eggs and a smidge 75% ff cheddar cheese

Water water water and raspberry tea

Shout out to my sister in law - Kendra!!   I am blessed... she is a keeper.  She told me today that she has been frequently checking for a new blog and keeps seeing the broccoli casserole pictures!  Love her.   So this one's for you Kenny!

Yesterday had it's moments... but I made it through!  and didn't divert from the plan!

So... To do a 5k muddy run or not to do a 5k muddy run... this is the question.

Part of me knows I need to be stretched and face my fears... and part of me says, No.. Too Soon.

It would probably be in Mid June.  So that would be 4 months to train for it.... eeek!!!!!  seems too much...  but my besties keep trying to convince me that I can do it.   The website below is the one we are thinking about.  It does look fun... in a horribly scary terrifying way.  LOL

http://www.godirtygirl.com/

The name of the website sounds shady but I promise it is legit. Ha!

I have to admit though... I've got baby on the brain lately.   When I was single forever I always wondered if God would bring me a husband.  I doubted He would many a time.  A few months before I met Mike I became more peaceful and more confident that God could and would do it.  However.. the lesson has returned!   Now I am waiting to see if I will be a mother some day and I doubt at times whether He will allow this to dream to come true.  So.. this big girl has baby on the brain.  I will continue to surrender my dreams and live life to the fullest.  I desire to grow in my spirit and shrink my outer shell.  I desire to be transparent like the leaves below...  that when the Sun shines through all who are looking will see what I am really made of.