39th birthday

I am 39.
Where did the time go?  Feels like I was just turning 30 and my Lancaster peeps threw me a huge surprise birthday party! 

Now, 9 years later I have three kids, a husband, a dog, and a house to fill them all in.

The one thing that continues to plague me is my food choices... health choices... exercise choices...

So here I am....  trying to tackle this as I enter my 40th year of life.

God is good.
I am 39.  Can you tell I'm trying to let this sink in? 

Day 164 & Day 1

Meal 1: mf pb crunch bar
Meal 2: mf oatmeal
Meal 3: mf brownie
Meal 4: mf strawberry shake
Snack: coffee

Back on track baby!!!!

Mothers Day 2013

Mothers Day-

A day to celebrate life and love.
I definitely had an awesome weekend celebrating the special women in my life.  I come from a long legacy of wonderful women. Mike comes from a long legacy of wonderful women.
Mothers are the most sacrificing people I know.  They give of their entire selves for the sake of their children when they are young-  It's actually quite a phenomenon when you think of it. 

I have been surrounded by unconditional love as a child and even still...  lots of love...... and I am so grateful.

I am down 50 pounds!!!!  woot woot!!   The big push is on now for another 15 pounds before summer vacation.  7 more weeks!   

Cinco de mayo came and went--  I was gonna blog
The first day of spring came and went- I was gonna blog

This week is a big push for making a schedule and sticking to the schedule.   Remember how I want to be a Domestic Diva right? :)    My morning routine is a hot mess.  At the beginning of the year I woke up at a certain time.. blogged.. showered and was out the door on time...   So tomorrow morning starts my early morning routine again.
6 am alarm
6:05 drink my first big glass of water
6:10 coffee/prayer journaling/Bible reading
6:30 shower
7:00 leave for work- eating my first medifast bar in the car

Tomorrow I will drink tons of water.
Tomorrow I will exercise at lunch time with co workers.
Tomorrow I will practice gratitude.
Tomorrow I will do loads of laundry in the evening.
Tomorrow I will go directly to the kitchen after I walk in the door and cook.
Tomorrow I will make sure kitchen sink is shiny and clean before bed.

#forward #keepitmovin #practicegratitude

My Mom. Gma. Kenny (my #1 fan) and Noelle.

Day 115 #forward

Keep it Movin!!!
#forward

I am heading toward the end of month 4.   I won't give up!!!!!

The past few weeks have been rough. Crazy emotions..... dwelling on negativity.... yo yo scale but I WON'T GIVE UP!!!

Some days I don't know where God is.. I know He doesn't leave us.. but hard times... roaring seas..dessert valleys.. it truly is hard to understand what He is doing.

Life is nothing that I hoped it would be by now.. I have a career of helping other moms be mom's and my womb remains empty.. Life is funny.. but I can't give up hope for a better future!! When we give up hope we truly have nothing!  

My heart is sad.... there is an ache Inside that I don't know will ever go away until I become a mother.  Most of you can't understand this ache and that is ok.. I'm not asking you to understand.. just know that I'm trying my best and I'm not giving up!!!!

I thought I would put up some before and now pics!!  #forward!!!!

Day 110!! Still going!

Day 110-  Chillin with my Katie, painting our nails, drinking water and watching movies= great day!

My total is 49 pounds lost. This week is the big push to get past 50 pounds! 

I'm doing well and staying strong for the most part.  I have cheated a bit here and there but have stayed true to the program for the most part. This plan is truly easy and I'm so thankful that I don't have to think too much. 

I have started a new venture again-   Mary Kay!   www.marykay.com/carencaren

I do love their products so it's time to start selling again! 

All that to say, I am a busy gal!  Losing weight.. lookin good.. lovin the Lord. woot woot!

Day 94!!!!

Wow... day 94... So exciting that I have made it this far!!  Day 100 will be fun for some reason!

Meal 1- MF Smores bar
Meal 2- MF Choc pb bar
Meal 3- MF Smores bar
Meal 4- MF berry crunch cereal
Lean N Green-   Salad, Grilled chicken, 2 tbs Caesar dressing
Water
Coffee with cream and splenda
Meal 5- MF choc chip cookie

It's official-  I am the captain of our work weight loss team called "Thin it To Win It"  :)
My role is to encourage and inspire the team to exercise and eat healthy.   How funny that I am the captain???!!!   It's really kinda funny when you think about it.  Considering I still weigh over 300 pounds!   Ha!    I'm the captain of a health team!    Love it!

This weekend is my birthday and I'm so excited to head into a new year of living knowing that I am taking care of my body!    Feels great to not feel guilty. 
I still have a long way to go but I am still on the road!!!!!!!!!   which is a first!!!!!

I have never done a diet past 3 months.
I have never lost more than 30 pounds.

Time to push past all those- I never!!!

#Forward!!!!!!

week 13 weigh in!

Down----  another 3.6 pounds!  Woot Woot!

Total of 45.6 pounds!!!  So flippin exciting! 

Last week I was the exercise champ!  I even took a hike/walk through the woods. 

I am definitely proud of myself for the choices I have been making lately.  I am moving FORWARD toward Health.   FORWARD toward freedom.   FORWARD toward summer!